It has been a week ago that I update my blog... and it been 4 days that we did not meet.
guess your days will be busier with the coming exhibition and assignments. it will be tiring. take care of your health ok? our timing will crash somehow.. I wont be around you so often then before.. only can sms you to eat your meal and drink water. and say good morning and good night. Even if we do meet, our time is short. I wonder when our next date will be.
Take care :)
Friday, July 27, 2012
Saturday, July 21, 2012
21 Jul
Think back... yup.. I should think in your shoe... the 'can't let go' and 'fear of alone' situation you are in. I should have keep my cool just now.
Don't know if I hear wrongly, but I heard you said, "Don't you are happy that I bought a new ring?" (Do you remember?) At least my heart is not boiling whenever I see that other ring. cause you said that ring keep hurting you.
hope that you can think before you skip any more event and classes. (your family one) It is not like you to do that.
One things about you is... you said, "call you back later." but you often forget to call back. Haiz... keep me waiting always.
Don't know if I hear wrongly, but I heard you said, "Don't you are happy that I bought a new ring?" (Do you remember?) At least my heart is not boiling whenever I see that other ring. cause you said that ring keep hurting you.
hope that you can think before you skip any more event and classes. (your family one) It is not like you to do that.
One things about you is... you said, "call you back later." but you often forget to call back. Haiz... keep me waiting always.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
What was I thinking?
I don't like you to meet her, talk to her or do anything with her. I don't want you to tell her anything about us, but I want to know everything about you. sound very selfish right? I am.
Sunday, July 15, 2012
Emo?
I wrote so many negative tots in this blog. at the end of the day, I don't want your pitiful love.
You told me you will wear my ring forever even if you have to wear it around your neck. Because it give you security. Until today, when did you even wear it around your neck. If one person want to do something, she/he will put it all effort to get it done. You just keep it in the box.
Then one day, you ask me if we should get a friendship ring. Cause you are used to wear a ring on your another hand. your request spear my heart deeply. I don't what is your inner intention. Maybe you just want a ring.
You goes around to tell my colleague that we are best friends. My heart pain again. But I take it as a cover to explain why we are always seen together. Cause we did not let them know about our past.
You ask me how come I never give you a heart necklace. I reply, "I will, only if I have your official boyfriend."
The stardom game:
You tell me that Cyn and Josh is engaged. I was puzzle cause you said that you only date A-list star. You reply that. "You give Josh chance earlier." and you know what, "For a moment, I was damm happy that are you hinting me that you are giving me chance earlier?" but then again, I tell myself, "dream on"
The very first gift I want to give you when Josh is your boyfriend is the heart-shape necklace. Keeping my words even in games. But you reply you don't like the necklace.... my heart pain again.
Sound like my heart pain every day. Is my heart tired? It is..... It is still beating for you.
Then one day, you ask me if we should get a friendship ring. Cause you are used to wear a ring on your another hand. your request spear my heart deeply. I don't what is your inner intention. Maybe you just want a ring.
You goes around to tell my colleague that we are best friends. My heart pain again. But I take it as a cover to explain why we are always seen together. Cause we did not let them know about our past.
You ask me how come I never give you a heart necklace. I reply, "I will, only if I have your official boyfriend."
The stardom game:
You tell me that Cyn and Josh is engaged. I was puzzle cause you said that you only date A-list star. You reply that. "You give Josh chance earlier." and you know what, "For a moment, I was damm happy that are you hinting me that you are giving me chance earlier?" but then again, I tell myself, "dream on"
The very first gift I want to give you when Josh is your boyfriend is the heart-shape necklace. Keeping my words even in games. But you reply you don't like the necklace.... my heart pain again.
Sound like my heart pain every day. Is my heart tired? It is..... It is still beating for you.
wait
Sometime, I wish someone can tell me what should I do to let you love me again.
Hope we will quarrel less and make more happy memories.
My bad to make you feel that I am forceful to you. I am really lost. lost in love, lost to love.
Hope we will quarrel less and make more happy memories.
My bad to make you feel that I am forceful to you. I am really lost. lost in love, lost to love.
Inner Feelings
I really really don't like you to talk to her, sms her, meet up with her. You told you that you already hardly talk to her, meet up with her etc. But that is not enough for me. I want you to totally cut off with her.
That is my selfish request.
I am very selfish too. I want you to have only me, your only one. No body else between the two of us. Or are you going to tell me, "You don't have to wait for me. I am not worth it. This is me, take it or leave it. I still love her. I cannot let her go " All this is just fucking bullshit to me...
As much as you cannot tolerate my internet friends, I also cannot tolerate her. Since last year, right from the start, I already cannot tolerate her.
You ask me, "Do you think me and her are still together meh?" . In my head I am thinking, "You have not let her go, you are still wearing the ring. you still love her." Why would you said it as a question? This mean you are not certain. Can't you just tell me straight that you and her are officially break up?
That is my selfish request.
I am very selfish too. I want you to have only me, your only one. No body else between the two of us. Or are you going to tell me, "You don't have to wait for me. I am not worth it. This is me, take it or leave it. I still love her. I cannot let her go " All this is just fucking bullshit to me...
As much as you cannot tolerate my internet friends, I also cannot tolerate her. Since last year, right from the start, I already cannot tolerate her.
You ask me, "Do you think me and her are still together meh?" . In my head I am thinking, "You have not let her go, you are still wearing the ring. you still love her." Why would you said it as a question? This mean you are not certain. Can't you just tell me straight that you and her are officially break up?
3 hours
希望我们的关系可以简简单单的开心。
I am angry when you use threatening words and "fuck" and "I hate you" But I don't know why I went to change clothes. and then I ly on my bed for awhile to cool down. I ask myself, what is wrong with you? Something must have happened.
5 min later, I was out and got into a cab to your house. My brain is asking me, "are you stupid?" "How can you stand her temper?" "She keep throwing her anger." "Are you really happy like this?" "Is this is what you really want?" Honestly, I have no answer. I just want to be at her side, I just want to see her. Other then that, my mind is blank.
Mid way to your house, we talk on the phone. When you know that I am already on the way to your house, you suddenly break down. I wish I have you in my arm at that point of time. Although I am of no help to you and your family.
我不要你不开心
I don't want when the day come when I start to loose control or even hating you. Before that happen, I tell myself not to love you as much as before. I don't want to force onto you. People said, "No matter how much you love a person, if the person does not love you, you have to let her go to find her own happiness." And I tell myself, "No matter what, you will not love me again. Cause I have no confidence to make you love me again." "My existence will only be like a family bond. It is not a love bond." "A family member that is important in your life. but not a love bond that I wish to have with you." I will get used to it. I will... for you.... I will stop loving you as much as I want to love you.
Thank you for coming to my house, despite that you have to rush to eat with your family later. I want to tell you not to come, but I want to see you. And I don't want to quarrel with you and make you piss off. I getting to have less comments with you. I don't know what to say so that we will not be quarreling and be not happy about.
I don't have any high hope that we going to watch all the running man, we got married epi. With our busy schedule and limit time spend together, and our mood swing, I have low expectation of us and what we say that we want to do together. The energy between us is low. Sometimes, when you tell me that you are going out to watch movie with your friends at such a late hours, I was telling to myself, since when she can or want to come out so late at night. Most the times is family do not allow, another reason is you are tired or lazy to go out. I am kind of jealous of your friends. Silly me.
In short, I have no confidence at all to love you and give you forever happiness and 100% trust in me. I have no confidence that you will love me any more.
Sometimes, I went crazy and thoughts of crazy stuff. such as must I die or get into serious accident? Now is problem is you don't love me. You only treat me as one of your family member or a close friend. Will the day come that I am just your elder brother...
My words still stands,"Do you allow me to take care of you forever?"
I am not expecting that you going to feel anything after reading this... no expectation is better for you and me.
I am angry when you use threatening words and "fuck" and "I hate you" But I don't know why I went to change clothes. and then I ly on my bed for awhile to cool down. I ask myself, what is wrong with you? Something must have happened.
5 min later, I was out and got into a cab to your house. My brain is asking me, "are you stupid?" "How can you stand her temper?" "She keep throwing her anger." "Are you really happy like this?" "Is this is what you really want?" Honestly, I have no answer. I just want to be at her side, I just want to see her. Other then that, my mind is blank.
Mid way to your house, we talk on the phone. When you know that I am already on the way to your house, you suddenly break down. I wish I have you in my arm at that point of time. Although I am of no help to you and your family.
我不要你不开心
I don't want when the day come when I start to loose control or even hating you. Before that happen, I tell myself not to love you as much as before. I don't want to force onto you. People said, "No matter how much you love a person, if the person does not love you, you have to let her go to find her own happiness." And I tell myself, "No matter what, you will not love me again. Cause I have no confidence to make you love me again." "My existence will only be like a family bond. It is not a love bond." "A family member that is important in your life. but not a love bond that I wish to have with you." I will get used to it. I will... for you.... I will stop loving you as much as I want to love you.
Thank you for coming to my house, despite that you have to rush to eat with your family later. I want to tell you not to come, but I want to see you. And I don't want to quarrel with you and make you piss off. I getting to have less comments with you. I don't know what to say so that we will not be quarreling and be not happy about.
I don't have any high hope that we going to watch all the running man, we got married epi. With our busy schedule and limit time spend together, and our mood swing, I have low expectation of us and what we say that we want to do together. The energy between us is low. Sometimes, when you tell me that you are going out to watch movie with your friends at such a late hours, I was telling to myself, since when she can or want to come out so late at night. Most the times is family do not allow, another reason is you are tired or lazy to go out. I am kind of jealous of your friends. Silly me.
In short, I have no confidence at all to love you and give you forever happiness and 100% trust in me. I have no confidence that you will love me any more.
Sometimes, I went crazy and thoughts of crazy stuff. such as must I die or get into serious accident? Now is problem is you don't love me. You only treat me as one of your family member or a close friend. Will the day come that I am just your elder brother...
My words still stands,"Do you allow me to take care of you forever?"
I am not expecting that you going to feel anything after reading this... no expectation is better for you and me.
Friday, July 13, 2012
Love Pt 7
有沒有經歷過
等短信等到睡著
被吵醒後不但不生氣
反而是滿滿的幸福 ♡
(very true)
我真的好想你/妳 ! ♡
我想要的未來
兩個人在一起
再養隻小寵物
(moo moo)
「Hj Story 愛情故事分享」
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等短信等到睡著
被吵醒後不但不生氣
反而是滿滿的幸福 ♡
(very true)
我真的好想你/妳 ! ♡
(everyday feeling)
我想要的未來
兩個人在一起
再養隻小寵物
(moo moo)
「Hj Story 愛情故事分享」
圖文完整版相冊 (『 愛情、心語、分享 』網頁 )
⇨ http://goo.gl/DHpHC ⇦
Friday, July 6, 2012
She know now
Now she know about this blog. Does that going to change what I want to write in this blog? I hope not. What other surprise things I can do?
Yesterday go Korean class with her. It is like a dream come true. I always tot what if we are classmate. Haha. Now we are. And like those Taiwan/Korean drama, classmate lover.. I know I know. stupid thinking. day dreaming. Hoping can do homework, revision with her.
Remember I ask her to do homework for me? It is like those Taiwan/Korean drama. The guy is lazy, and then the girl help to do homework for the guy so that he will not be punished by teacher. Hahaha. That is why I ask her to do my homework. Me just day dreaming.
Got to remember the vowels and consonants. I try to converse with her in Korean. Haha. want to try "Hello" in Korean but I don't know how to type.
I am going to sleep. Don't think can hear your voice to sleep. Thank you for calling me yesterday.
Yesterday go Korean class with her. It is like a dream come true. I always tot what if we are classmate. Haha. Now we are. And like those Taiwan/Korean drama, classmate lover.. I know I know. stupid thinking. day dreaming. Hoping can do homework, revision with her.
Remember I ask her to do homework for me? It is like those Taiwan/Korean drama. The guy is lazy, and then the girl help to do homework for the guy so that he will not be punished by teacher. Hahaha. That is why I ask her to do my homework. Me just day dreaming.
Got to remember the vowels and consonants. I try to converse with her in Korean. Haha. want to try "Hello" in Korean but I don't know how to type.
I am going to sleep. Don't think can hear your voice to sleep. Thank you for calling me yesterday.
Love Pt 6
幸福是愛 是喜歡 是習慣 是離不開
幸福就是擁有一個你離不開他/她
他/她也離不開你的人 …… ♡
(can I?)
當你站在你喜歡的人面前 你只感到開心
當你站在你愛的人面前 你的心跳會加速
當你與你喜歡的人四目交投 你只會微笑
當你與你愛的人四目交投 你會害羞
當你和你喜歡的人對話時 你可以暢所欲言
當你和你愛的人對話時 你覺得難以啟齒
吵架吵不過女生的男生 都是好男生 ♡
幸福就是擁有一個你離不開他/她
他/她也離不開你的人 …… ♡
(can I?)
當你站在你愛的人面前 你的心跳會加速
當你與你喜歡的人四目交投 你只會微笑
當你與你愛的人四目交投 你會害羞
當你和你喜歡的人對話時 你可以暢所欲言
當你和你愛的人對話時 你覺得難以啟齒
(happen most of the time)
(this is so me)
不必承諾對我說永遠
只需愛我一天又一天
我不需要你有多完美
只需要你能讓我感覺到：我就是唯一 ♡
只需愛我一天又一天
我不需要你有多完美
只需要你能讓我感覺到：我就是唯一 ♡
兩個人在一起久了
父母管不下來的習慣
會因為她的一聲哼 而改正 ♡
父母管不下來的習慣
會因為她的一聲哼 而改正 ♡
(this is ... hehe)
當你愛上一個人 …… ♡
總是會迫切的想要見到他/她
總是會迫切的想要見到他/她
(This is the feeling I have everyday.)
有的人說不清哪裡好
但就是誰都替代不了
但就是誰都替代不了
(You are irreplaceable. This is the reason why I wait, why I came back to you)
Thursday, July 5, 2012
5 Jul
Just feel that she is very encouraging then usual. I always want she to be supporting to what I am doing. And today she say to me concern and encouraging words. She know what, I was asking myself am I dreaming? Usually she will reply me in a cool tone. Or usually she will be piss off. Or maybe I am thinking too much. She is just to sick to be piss off.
But anyway thanks u for your encouraging words. Really appreciate. U
Now that she know about this blog. I want to be with her when she is looking at te blog.
Monday, July 2, 2012
I miss her
Yesterday night I keep telling her I miss her, I like her. I really do.
Her little action of just making little video recording of herself. It is really sweet. I would not know to do that. Kind of brainless me, don't know how to to make people feel sweet. I need more actions to let her know I want her whole heart. Although she did smile when I say I like her and I want her whole heart. But I need to prove to her.
Jia You ba. Woodblock.
Her little action of just making little video recording of herself. It is really sweet. I would not know to do that. Kind of brainless me, don't know how to to make people feel sweet. I need more actions to let her know I want her whole heart. Although she did smile when I say I like her and I want her whole heart. But I need to prove to her.
Jia You ba. Woodblock.
Love Pt 5
愛 是相互依靠 是同舟共濟 ♡
愛 是有福同享 是有難同當 ♡
愛情會讓人變傻 變幼稚 …
聰明不會感動人 傻才會 ♡
愛不是一個人的事
是兩個人的努力
是兩個人的奮鬥
是兩個人的共同創造
世界上最動聽的情話
不是：「我愛你」
而是在我最脆弱的時候
你說：「有我在」♡
記得我們的紀念日
記得我們所有經歷的日子
記得我們所有走過的日子
每天你都是我最愛的樣子
愛 是有福同享 是有難同當 ♡
聰明不會感動人 傻才會 ♡
是兩個人的努力
是兩個人的奮鬥
是兩個人的共同創造
不是：「我愛你」
而是在我最脆弱的時候
你說：「有我在」♡
記得我們所有經歷的日子
記得我們所有走過的日子
每天你都是我最愛的樣子
當我們真正愛上了一個人
是百分之百 是無時無刻
都在想念著他/她 …… ♡
是百分之百 是無時無刻
都在想念著他/她 …… ♡
愛一個人是 …… ♡
即使不能幫你承擔所有傷害
也絕不讓你獨自一個人承受
即使不能幫你承擔所有傷害
也絕不讓你獨自一個人承受
等待一個人的簡訊
等待一個人的電話
等待能是一種幸福
等待能是一種煎熬
等待一個人的電話
等待能是一種幸福
等待能是一種煎熬
愛是守候
愛是付出
愛是彼此陪伴
愛是互相照料
愛是付出
愛是彼此陪伴
愛是互相照料
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